First, that is not a typo for the title. “How” gets you in trouble.
Second, I’m going to get a little personal here. Right now I’m sitting on a lot of problems. I’m also sitting on a lot of opportunities. Which one is it? Depends on how you look at it.
Here is the deal: I have no clue “how” God is going to manage to get everything I have going on in my life figured out, worked out and anywhere near my desire of having everything turn out in a positive way.
I have faith He will. I really do. I just don’t know how He is going to do it. Sounds like an oxymoron, right? I have faith, but I don’t.
This has been bothering me for the last couple days. I have several irons in the fire so much so, where I probably have more iron in the fire, than fire heating the iron. I know God has my best interests in mind, but I have no clue “how” He is going to do it.
There lies my problem. In a way, I feel that perspective lessens my faith. Almost like I really don’t have it… or much.
I’ve been in this position before, but not to this degree. Once again, there are so many irons in the fire.
My mistake is that I think I must know “how” God is going to do it. What resources will He call into play? The timing of it all… the tools I’ll have to use… the blind side good news which will come out of no where. “How” was never my responsibility. Obviously I’m responsible for doing my part, I get that, althought I could write a whole other post on what that means.
The fact is that I don’t have to know “how”. I just have to trust that God will take care of the how, as he has so many times before in my life. He found a way through fertility treatments, so my wife and I could get pregnant for the first time. He made a way for me to go from being a C student in elementary school to straight A’s in graduate school. He put the experiences in place after I completely messed up a relationship, which led me to an incredible life partner. He gave me other skills to balance out my dyslexia, and manage through my school studies. He put in place opportunities where I could be a part of sports teams. He gave me windows of time where I risked so much to start up a business, and now it soley supports my family of four with a great quality of life. I can go on and on.
Right now there is so much going on, and I have so many dreams of where I want my life to be in six months (or even next week!). I’m starting to take heart in the fact that I don’t have to figure out the “how”. I just have to have faith that the creator of the universe, all of the planets, every animal and human being, and ecological complex system will figure out “how” to solve my little issues.
Seems silly. But at times it feels very scary.
I’ve realized it is only scary when we think we need to know how. Planning is good, and taking consistent action is a must, but leaving it up to God and truly letting go is leaving the how up to God. When you do, you’ll be surprised on “how” He does it.